Here in this silent dusk
before I light the candles
for Shabbat,
I say the name
I am taught to say,
Hashem
Hear my prayer.
You are fire and the
hidden force
within the flame,
born out of the air
I breathe.
Days are short and everlasting
and a moment passes never
to return.
I write my days in the wind
longing to see the mystery
in images plucked
from the dark,
the silver fragile thread
that joins my heart
to Yours.
For I have been gone so long
tumbling through a whirling world
accumulating chit chat
of this or that-
spending hours
chasing after knowledge
that fades with the setting sun.
I thirst for words You wrote
in parchment long ago
traveling through the centuries,
that live before me now
and ask for nothing
but to roll open a scroll
to taste the letters
written there.
And yet for that
I feel small.
Adoshem, hear my prayer:
Amid the cacophony of sounds
the day’s brash light that
covers images of You,
give me strength
to stop,
bring up a chair,
pour a cup of tea
and study Thee.
For You are my sustenance,
that carves a path within my soul
and gives me power to loiter
in benediction and in grace.
Hear me now, hear my plea.
The name I whisper deep within
Is Eli,
my God
and
I will say
AMEN.
Shelley attributes her love of all things Jewish to the two years she lived and studied in Jerusalem. She graduated from Columbia University with a B.A. in English Literature and acquired an M.F.A. in Writing from the Vermont College of Fine Arts. Currently, she teaches Creative Writing and Modern European Literature as an adjunct in Touro College.
Anita, It means the world to me that you enjoyed this poem. I’m a fan of your poetry as well and isn’t a mysterious phenomenon to connect with poets all over the world and be able to share our thoughts. Thank you.
Shelley this is a most moving poem, redolent with imagery that traces the spiritual in the mundane. Congratulations