“It’s like I was a coin and the world
was a magnet,” Owen says,
after riding a bike for the first time.
Sun’s down to that magic height
where the live oaks catch its blaze;
we just get its shine. Then
he’s racing again, yelling
at me not to chase him.
He has my thick skull,
laugh, eyelashes; my dad
called me Tank,
I call him Pinball—
the world is a magnet I think
about grinding my teeth
when he was a baby, still
he careens, whistling
along, speeds like air
through G-d’s lips.
We shout for him to stop;
will he carry my hunger
to please teachers
and parents? My over-thinking,
craving, my inability
to agonize?
He’s got my legs,
his eyes,
I know it’s wrong
to look for belief
in a lock of hair,
any natural ease of faith
I lack. Will my skepticism
be his patrimony? Who am I
to tell him who we are?
“We are overtime!” Owen yells,
rides infinite imperfect circles,
around us, un-alone.
Joshua Gottlieb-Miller recently received his PhD in Literature and Creative Writing from the University of Houston; this poem comes from his dissertation, Dybbuk Americana. Currently Joshua tutors for Houston Community College, is a weekend desk attendant for the Menil Collection, and teaches a senior memoir workshop for Inprint through the Jewish Community Center. Joshua lives in Houston with his wife, Lauren, and son, Owen.
Joshua I really like this poem. It cycles between the physical and spiritual realms and I can feel the speed. Thank you.